Let’s Talk About Stretchmarks

I know stretchmarks are a point of contention for a lot of women. Do they keep you from having perfect, flawless skin? Sure. Are they “ugly”? Of course not.

Stretchmarks are reminders of our lives. They’re like that scar on your knee from when you fell off your bike when you were 8. They show us where we’ve been. Where we’ve come from, and who we used to be.

I see them as a positive. As a representation of the battles we’ve fought, the wars we’ve won, and probably a few we haven’t. But they’re beautiful, just as you are beautiful.

Now, I understand not everyone feels the same way about stretchmarks, and that’s ok. If my clients want them minimized in their final images, I absolutely will do that. Because in the end, your images are about you, not me. You vision matters as much as mine does.

Celebrating Yourself After a Journey

One of the main reasons many women decide to book a boudoir session is to celebrate some season of their life. Whether it be a milestone they’ve reached, a new marriage, a divorce or beating cancer. The reasons are plentiful, but the baseline is the same: to celebrate themselves in their own skin.

And when you think about it, it makes perfect sense. Major life change brings with it internal change within ourselves. We reconsider things and find new meaning and new confidence.

Boudoir is a celebration; a celebration of self, of sensuality, of femininity, of power. That celebration makes even more sense when your journey shifts, as a way to mark the new path.

I also feel that the session itself is it’s own kind of journey. Clients come in nervous and a little apprehensive. I get to see them blossom before my eyes as they sink into the comfort they find in themselves. And I get to watch them walk out of my studio, holding their head a little higher, their step a little lighter, their smile a little bigger. There’s a special kind of awesomeness in watching that journey, which marks another.

So tell me, what do you need to celebrate?

7 Sexy things you have in your closet right now for a boudoir session

Deciding what you want to wear for your session is often intimidating to many clients.  But, it’s not nearly as difficult as you think.  Here are 7 things you probably have in your closet or wardrobe right now that would make FIRE options for your session.

  1. A white button down shirt.  This can be your shirt or your partners.  Worn unbuttoned or partially unbuttoned with nothing underneath or a lacy bra can have some nice impact.
  2. A tank top and panties.  I think this one speaks for itself.
  3. Knee high socks or leg warmers.  Worn alone and posed strategically can be a great visual tease.
  4. Your favorite little black dress.  There are plenty of steamy poses you can do while fully clothed.
  5. Those oh-so-perfect fitting jeans. Pair them with a cute top, or no top at all.
  6. That slinky see-through swim suit cover up you only wore once at the beach.  Let’s give it a new sexy life.
  7. Your favorite high heels or thigh high boots.  These need no explanation.

On top of these, lingerie is always a winner.  I have a variety of lingerie prices and robes available for use in my client closet as well.  I just ask that my clients bring along a nude and/or black thong to wear under items for hygenic reasons.  Of course all pieces are cleaned and sanitized between uses.

A white shirt makes for great boudoir images.

The end of another year: reflections

It’s hard to believe that this is the last day of 2021. I don’t know about you, but for me the last two years have been a bit of a blur, winding together in my mind with no real distinction between the two. Perhaps that’s because 2020 seemed to stand still for so long.

I’m still here, still doing what I love. I’ve added a few new sets in the studio and planted a gorgeous wildflower garden surrounding a stunning slipper bathtub for summer sessions outdoors. When it blooms in all it’s glory I’ll be sure to share images with you.

The last two years have taught me a very important lesson about what my real priorities are and what really matters to me. You, my amazing clients, are on that list. This studio, and the magic we create together here, matters. The look in your eyes when you see your final images, matters. The way you hold your head a little higher when you walk out of my studio, matters.

My time with the people I love matters too. You’ll find my available dates for sessions going forward is a little more restricted than in years past. This isn’t to make things harder on you, but to take more control of my own time so I can be there more for my family. So I can spend more time with those who I value. I know you’ll understand, because you value me as much as I value you.

So, how has your year been? Has it felt like a blur for you as it has for me? Did you learn anything about yourself as a result of the hardships the world has faced from the last two years?

Quick Update

Just a quick update. As you probably already know, the Indiana Governor has asked that all non-essential businesses cease taking clients until April 7th. I am adhering to the mandate. While I fully expect this time frame to be extended, I am excited to get back to working with my awesome clients.

I am still answering emails and taking your call and questions. I am still here for you. We just have to do things from a distance for the time being. I am also taking this opportunity to work on a few personal projects, which I will share with you soon.

In the meantime, take care and stay safe!

Happy New Year!

This time of year is always full of planning for me. I like to plan everything about my life, and I make myself these promises about how I’m going to eat healthier, be more consistent and “do all the things”. And then I really try to do all the things, but I try to do them all at once. This is a recipe for disaster.

You see, we’re human. We can’t focus on “all the things” at the same time. It’s simply not possible. And then, when we fail to do them “all” we end up dropping all the balls and not picking them back up. This is evidenced by how long it’s been since I wrote a post on this site. It isn’t because I’m not active with my business. It’s because I allow myself to get overwhelmed by my own “failure” to “do it all”. But here’s the rub: there’s no real failure. It’s all in my head. I’m still working with amazing clients, taking care of my family and living a pretty awesome life. That isn’t failure at all. So why do we beat ourselves up for not being able to uphold some ridiculous standard we put on ourselves?

We’ve been trained to feel like less. We’ve been trained to compare ourselves to everyone and everything, and if we can’t be all of that ourselves, then we are supposed to feel like failures.

Body positivity has been a hot button topic for awhile now. But this feeling of failure is why the topic is SO important to me. We are real women. None of us has “perfect” bodies but we are all still beautiful. We are powerful, we are strong and we are amazing. It can be hard for me to fully embrace my body and every part of myself when I’ve gained extra weight and I have to buy new clothes. But does that change anything about my true beauty? Absolutely not. And I am still powerful and strong, just in the next size up. But I’m not a failure. Nor am I somehow worth more when I do the work to lose those extra pounds. That work and determination is worth something because it’s the demonstration of my power as a human being and a woman, but MY worth is unchanged by the size of my pants. And so is yours.

This year lets stop overwhelming ourselves with “all the stuff” and concentrate on what’s real. Let’s live in the experience of our own power and not define ourselves by non-existent failures. Happy New Year.

It’s not about them

Whenever I have a new prop or something cool I’ve changed int he studio, I get really excited to share that with my clients. Often, I will use it as an opportunity to take some self-portraits to share. Almost immediately after posting those images, I get messages in my inbox from men trying to hit on me. And I know this happens to my clients when they post images as well. This happens because they misunderstand WHY those images were posted.

When myself, or one of my clients posts a boudoir image out into the world, we aren’t doing it for the viewer. (Okay, sometimes in my case it is for my clients, when I want them to see that new awesome prop or background.) Women don’t post those images so people will tell them their beautiful or sexy. They already know that. She has eyes too. She saw the image before she posted it. It’s not about getting validation. It’s a DECLARATION.

A declaration she that she is brave and bold and fierce. It’s a declaration that she knows she is amazing. It’s an affirmation for herself, a reminder for herself to remember who she is. She isn’t looking for compliments or to be hit on. This is about her, it’s not about anyone else.

And frankly, even if she planned to gift the images from that session to someone, having it done wasn’t about that person either. The true gift was to herself. The true gift happened in the hour she was in front of that camera with a photographer who understands her and what she was feeling while in that studio.

So the next time you see a woman take the extra step in vulnerability and post an image of herself, don’t tell her she looks beautiful. Tell her she is amazing. Tell her what you value about her. Remind her that you know who she is too.

Happy Valentine’s Day – Love

Love is such a tricky thing. How we love and what makes us feel loved is formed from our first days on this earth. Today is a day to celebrate love.

Being a single woman on Valentine’s day, I often find myself kind of rolling my eyes at this day, and I know I’m not alone in that. But this year I choose to make today a celebration of all love, not just romantic love between partners. Today I’m celebrating the love I share with my children, my friends and for myself.

Romantic love can be an amazing, beautiful thing. It can also be destructive, cold and callous. How we learn to love others, and how we feel loved is the result of our life experiences. Because the first ways we learn about love is through the people we grow up with, those experiences are deeply rooted in our psyche. We are the result of the cumulative experiences of our extended families, and what they believed about what love is, and how to show it to another human being. In short, we are all flawed, imperfect and many times broken. This is what makes romantic love so hard, and yet, we crave it. So much so that it becomes part of our identity. Our social status is tied to our identification as single or married. For hundreds of years, a woman’s worth was determined solely by her marital status.

Our society deems romantic love as the most important kind of love, but I’d like to challenge that idea. I believe that platonic love (love between parents and children, friends, relatives and others) is far more important, and therefore worthy of being celebrated today. This kind of love is so much more forgiving, because it’s not bound up in the social constructs of romantic love. It isn’t used to for financial gain or a change in social status. It’s free to be given at will. It’s a complete choice. The only thing to be lost or gained from it, is love in return.

The best life, is a life full of love. ANY love. Celebrate all the love you find in your life today. Don’t allow the presence or absence or a romantic partner determine how you feel today. Your worth is not determined by your status as single or attached. Your worth comes from inside, from the love you freely give to others and too yourself. Happy Valentine’s Day.

Four ways our self-worth is impacted

Self-worth. We tend to think of it in terms of self-esteem, but self-worth is much more than how we feel about ourselves. I think self-worth is an action. It’s how we treat ourselves, how we speak to ourselves and how we allow others to treat and speak to us.

I have struggled with this A LOT. I stayed in a marriage where the things that were said to me were extremely unkind, to the point that they colored what I said to myself. I have said unthinkable things to myself, I have devalued myself in what I believe I’m worth to world and I have allowed others to devalue me.

I think self-worth is a hard one because it requires us to stand up for ourselves, against our own demons and against the actions of others. Sometimes we have allowed ourselves to feel so devalued that standing up is a monumental task. And the ways that others devalue us can be small, and it’s easy to “let them slide” initially. But the problem with letting it slide, even once, is that it quickly becomes a habit, until we have allowed that person to have no value of us. And when others stop valuing us, we stop valuing ourselves.

I challenge you to value yourself, to yourself and to others. But to do that, we first have to consider the ways in which we are devalued. So let’s talk about some of the most common ways.

1. We don’t honor commitments we make to ourselves. (Guilty!) I promised myself I would make a point of meditating for at least 10 minutes every single day. I made this promise to myself because I know how good it is for my soul to take some time to quiet my mind. Have I been doing it lately? No. Not honoring that commitment diminishes my self-worth.

2. We say terrible things to ourselves. Why? Of all the horrible things strangers on the internet are willing to say to each other, why on earth would we do that to ourselves? (I’m not smart enough, pretty enough, I’m fat, I’m not worthy, not enough, not…) PLEASE, just stop already. Stop beating yourself up.

3. We allow other people to say terrible things to us. If you find yourself spending time with someone who is constantly telling you everything that is wrong with you, cut that person out of your life. Seriously, no one needs that.

4. We don’t respect our own time, and we allow others not to respect our time. That one friend who always forces you to wait on them? Maybe you should spend less time with them. Maybe they don’t deserve your time if they aren’t willing to be respectful of it. This goes for clients too. Appointments are made for specific times. Emergencies happen, but if a particular client has lots of emergencies, well, they don’t really have emergencies, they just don’t respect you.

There are more, but these first four are the biggies. Concentrate on these, and your self-worth is bound to see a positive impact.

When were you last scared?

When is the last time you did something that scared you? I don’t mean scared you a little, but really put yourself out there, lots of people are gonna see this, scared the crap out of you? I did that very thing today.

You see, I’m working on a new project. A project that requires me to use myself as a model. A project that will be available world-wide once it’s complete. Now, I get in front of the camera occasionally for this blog so I can show my clients that anyone can do this boudoir thing. While my website is technically available for the whole world, the whole world doesn’t see it. In fact, it only gets seen by a very small percent of people because what I do is location specific and pretty damn targeted. Unless your looking for what I do, you likely won’t just stumble onto my page.

This project is different. This project, when complete, will be available on a highly used, world wide education platform. Yikes! So, I’m a tad bit nervous about the whole thing. But here’s the thing, this project will help enable my dreams. And the truth is, the things that will take us to the next level are almost always terrifying. This is why most people never level up in real life. Because fear holds them back. Fear controls the next move.

What do you really want to do that fear is stopping you from you doing? What is that thing that will change you? What is the thing that will change your situation? What part of that thing is scaring you? And what will happen if you swallow your fear and do that thing anyway? What will you gain?

Whatever that thing is, I want to encourage you to push through the fear and make it happen. I’m learning that a big part of taking care of myself is pushing myself to get out there are really chase down my dreams. I don’t want to leave this world with regrets, and letting fear dictate my path would be a huge regret for me.

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